I sat briefly, after the theatre had cleared out of the audience and vast cast members, speaking with the director about how we thought it went. Bar a lighting issue which occurred just as the play was about to begin, I thought it went well. However I was unsure if had gone as well as I would have hoped. I wasn't entirely sure how to feel. I was content that the play went smoothly (again, barring the lighting situation). I was content that the cast performed magnificently. I was content with the small but cosy theatre. I was generally content.
The feeling of contentment is one that comes with its downfalls. It makes me feel uneasy. What is contentment?!?!
All in all, the night post-stageplay I was numb. Unsure of what the reaction would be from the journalist - who had viewed it and had told me that she would write up some feedback rather than tell me there and then. Understandable. But nerve-racking.
Soon contentment became disappointment and then finally anger at my own writing talents. Briefly I toyed with the idea of quitting writing. Ever so briefly.
The idea manifested itself into apathy. So I got on with my normal daily tasks and put writing and creativity to the back of my mind. Never to be touched again. No email from the journalist or feedback. I delved into my darkest and most negative thoughts - "she hated it and couldn't be bothered to give any feedback"
Then at 14:51 military time, today, I got an unexpected email from said journalist...full of positivity and creative feedback! Enters my face, a smile! A new spring my step!
In all it was a fair assessment of the play. Things that I had expected - based upon my own viewing. In essence and conclusion though....here's comes TRUTH people!
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